i hate that i hate myself.
i hate who ive become
i hate how what makes me happy is what i think making other ppl will make them happy.
i hate that i'm alone.
i know im not, but i truely am
you dont know me
what goes on inside of me
how i feel
how i want
i jsut need
something
i just need to be complete
i just need a new world
a new life
a new being
i hate myself
i hate how i look
i hate that im lazy
i hate that no mattr what, I am always alone
i cant sleep.
i cant find happiness in myself
i cant make anyone/everyone happy
there is always something
thar kills me inside.
that i need you
that i need
why cant i be independent?
why cant i love myself
why cant i not hurt so bad inside anymore?
why wont it go away
why have i become such a loathed person.
I am jealous..
I am stupid..
i need you.. i need to make you happy
i need this.. :'[
why dont I have you to hold me..
why cant i have someone to hold me when I cry
why am i so lost?
why am i so imperfect?
i have everything i could ask for...
yet i hurt my heart bleeds to make things perfect
to be happy.. i love you
i love everyone i want to make happy
im not even my own person.. i cant be
because i myself am a let down.. im nothing..
im not worth being here
if i cant keep you happy
i cant :[
im not i cant
i need you.. but i cant have you
i cant bother you.. i just need to find my own way but i cant
and i cant ask for help because no one really wants me.
no one really wants me to help
i love you so bad..

Me, myself, and I

Neg.
I am directionless
I am unmotivated
I am affraid of failure
I am affraid to try
I am yours
I am lost
I am lazy
I am scared
I am sad
I am wanting more
I am scared of the truth
I am scared of the future

Pos.
I am capable of my own destiny
I am moved by somethings
I can do some things better than you can.
I can try
You're mine.
I have found the paths, I just don't know which to choose
I am lazy, but some people are worse lol
I have you.
I am happy :]
I have more than enough
I know the truth
I should embrace change.

thanks you tina. kinda helped